I am a traitor and a con, my lord. Greed and desire are the fuel of my passion. And lust the fire of my needs. Long have I hungered for the world and my thirst it seems cannot be slaked. I have lived the life that in my mind I have fought so much against and I have turned my back on what I have for so long stood. I have deceived myself and much of that around me.

But now that I have bared my soul, I know not what to do nor where to go. No longer do I know who I am or for what I stand and live. I have this weight on my shoulders and it is slowly breaking me. It is crushing me. I deserve as much because such is the price of having betrayed myself. But it is all too painful to bear, too complicated to understand and too difficult to accept. My mind is just about to explode because of the torment.

My lord, is it a sin to be burdened so by the pleasures that creep up and into my head? These hands, were they not made to take this world and build it, mould it as I deem fit? And these eyes, were they not created to gleam upon the very earth which you have fashioned?

Green eyes I have, my lord. The green eyes of envy and jealousy. Such is my burden and such is my sin.

Take me away. Take me away now. Take me far away to where my sins cannot follow. To where there is no temptation. To where there is no flesh for which to hunger, no blood nor wine for which to thirst . To a place of pristine white. To a place where my darkness will be swallowed.