Work is so de-motivating. It's not even motivating to being with. Fact is they hired us because we're self-motivated, self-driven. They know that there is little they can do, or little they know how to motivate people. What little motivation I had brewing up within me when I started has all but ebbed away! Somebody find me a job!!!

I find that my appraisal hurt because some of the things said were in one way or another true but not completely. Somehow, I can't help but think maybe I could've done better. But for my commitment to be questioned, how dare they?! My commitment to my responsbility and diligence has always been my pride. How could they question that? Have I not had headaches enough? Have I not spared so many weekends?? Have I not worked far beyond my responsibility? And do they not pay me less than what I am worth? And to be called un-creative? What is that all about? Un-creative because I followed format? How else am I supposed to create a report? It's an effin report in an effin regional format you effin Moron!! Sheesh... And they tell me that as a management trainee I'm supposed to always go the extra mile. What extra mile? I remember being told that I will always work as expected. If I finish a project 1 year in advance, it's still as expected. There is no extra mile! And low EQ? Low EQ my effin ass!! If they had the EQ of a billy goat they'd know the least bit about motivating their employees. Sheesh, low EQ my ass. Mother effin morons don't even know the amount of backstabbing and rumor-mongering goes on around the office about them. Effin morons.

Then what motivation is there for me to work harder?? There is no money here. I can clearly remember being told during the interview, "if you're looking to get rich, you're in the wrong place." Somebody find me a job!!